:))

just wana say HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO QUEKPEILING aka my GORGEOUS HELLMATE :))

thank you for inviting us to your 21st birthday party.
it has been a memorable day for all of us :)
:))
Stay pwetty and crazy always ^^

overwhelmed.

today was supposed to be a fantastic day.
it's me and Jer's 38th monthsery!
*happy 3 years and 2 months, JER! :)*
was supposed to attend Clement's birthday party together.
Like finally, get to attend an event as a couple; rather than alone by myself.
but ended up, at the last minute had to cancel :(
*sorry eugene!*

am still overwhelmed by everything.
by myself, by everything right now.
Don't understand why things happen in such ways.
Don't understand why people turn out different from what they seem.
Don't understand why love couldn't just stay simple.
Don't understand why some people thinks so lightly of promises made.

situations around me happened in such a way that made me ponder quite alot.
promises aren't made to be broken.
else, you hurt the people who love you.
enough said.

aside from feeling sad,
good things did happen today.
had a great japanese treat @ ICHIBAN from my boyfriend :))
and we got to watch "HE's just not that into You"
it's a totally fabulous show :))
thank you boyfriend :)

:S

Am in school right now.
waiting for my turn at the printer.
such a long queue.
There should be a better system.
Hmm.. Maybe can implement Scientific Management in some ways.
HEE. Must be studying too much.
:)
but I'm gonna have to wait for SO LONG for my turn.
judging from the bulk that the people are printing.
SO SAD!!

And I'm so bored.
nothing to do.
nowhere to go.
BORED.
and I miss my boyfriend badly.
Our schedules just like clashing together.
NO TIME TO MEET UP!
oh man.
I'm feeling sad right now.
I wish I can have more time for myself :'(
sighhh...

:)

Thank God that the hectic period just went and passed temporarily :)

Below are things that happened this week and that I feel like sharing/whining about :))

1. today, I was quite pissed off w my mktg grp member.
I don't like "worriers"; they made me urmmm.. duno what word to use to describe.
anyways, I tried my best to control myself;
so that I won't talk in an intimidating way which I usually do when I want to get my way.
It took me lots of patience to be nice and listen patiently then explain patiently as well.
Gosh. FIVE MORE WEEKS TO GO! :(

2. Was quite relieved that HMT grp proj is done and over with.
Went CELEBRATE w eileen.
:))
but now have to worry about HMT individual.
will start on it SOON.
SOON, I promise. HEHS.

3. I THANK GOD that I don't have money on me today.
else I would have splurge it all.
SAW SO MANY NICE BAGS!
there's this soft leather bag from charles n keith; it's damn nice and EX.
and MY FAV HEELS are on SALEEEEEEEEEEE.
mans. it's a good thing that I don't own credit cards.
I'll be totally hopeless.
hehs. AM doing my best to control :))

4. PAYDAY is coming SOON.
wahahaha. okayy. Will promise to save up most of it.
but I'll be spending some!
SO THAT I CAN FINALLY LEARN DRIVING!
whee....
:DD

5. I miss my boyfriend SO MUCH.
but I'll be seeing him TML!
whee.
we have decided to go running every friday morning at 7am.
WHEE .
SO EXCITED.
man. I shld go to sleep soon.
I so need my energy.

okayy. Logging off soon.
have a great weekend everyone :))

hectic and sad week.

this week hasn't come to an end yet.
but I already feel overwhelmed by it.
it's been a hectic and sad week.
alot of upsetting events, irritating events, etcetc.
I'm emotionally drained for now :'(

valentine's day or not.

yes. Valentine's Day just passed.
HAHA.
but me and boyfriend decided not to celebrate it like usual.
and so, it became another even more "memorable" day just like last year on the same date as well.
ah wells. Thank God it ended on a happy note :))

We had dinner w his family first.
pretty rushed, in my opinion.
and his daddy foot the bill even though we were supposed to be the ones treating.
my boyfriend was made to wear couple tee with me!
he looked so cute in it!
WHEE :)
after which poor boyfriend was dragged off w me to shop for shoes and teeshirts.
HA! don't get me wrong.
We were buying HIS. not mine.
HEE :))
then we went to line up for neoprints.
THREE YEARS nv take lers!! :S
I so love the neoprint!! :))
oh wells. it's just another day to remember.

I love you no matter what happens.

I AM SO PROUD OF MY BOYFRIEND! :))

This post is specially dedicated to the MAN of my life :)

YES! he's noneotherthan my most beloved BOYFRIEND! ^^
Boyfriend! I know I haven't really told you how proud I am of you :)
and so, here it is.
JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI! I'm really very proud of you for your determination!
YOU DID IT!
I can't tell you how happy I am.
'Cause it's a hard-to-describe type of feeling.
From the 4th of FEB, JEREMYLIMCHUANGHAI-MYBELOVED, has been promoted from being my GUY, to being the MAN OF MY LIFE!! :))
whee...

I NEED A LIFE!

I NEED A LIFE!! :(

Routines are tiring.
Wednesdays are my boyfriend days!
but today was a hectic day used for project meetings.
Had two project meetings today straight after my morning class.
Super tired can.
and my bag is super heavy.
;(
I need a chauffeur w his own car!!
hahaha.

Some randomness of limjiaxin

1. I don't want to become fat!
urms. I ain't bulimic or anorexic!
but I want to stay in a healthy size!!
been seeing alot of people gg out of shape.
no offence.
but I would hate to be like that.
I'll be damn depressed.
but I just don't want history to repeat itself.
(Don't worry. I won't be starving myself; just going to exercise more. ANYWAYS, I can never force myself to hate food! :D)

2. I feel that I want to go for an overseas short term studies.
As in, for the fun of it.
See how bahs. If I'm able to support myself, that is.
HA! :))

3. Turning twenty-one this year.
but I don't feel the excitement as much as my friends do.
perhaps, to me it's just another birthday.
No big celebrations for me please; I just want a peaceful and happy year ahead with no hiccups :)
that's all I want.

4. tuition is totally stressful.
my new students are really challenging.
My schedule is really very tiring.
:((
I've no more me-time.
I need a LIFE! :(

Going to do my HMT project lers.
WHEE!
I need chocolates right now! :'(

QUOTE OF THE DAY : Behind a Successful Woman, is a cat and a fridge full of CHOCOLATES!

:((

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin' it's early morn
The taxi's waitin' he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh baby, I hate to go

Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

I'm leaving, though not on a jet plane.
but I really hate to go :(
Feel like crying again :'(

PENNIES FOR THOUGHTS

Life has been pretty well and fine for me.
Am coping well with school.
Things on my schedule are gradually falling into place;
So I don't have to worry about coping at all! :)
wellwells. Been thinking for quite abit.

PENNIES FOR MY THOUGHTS!

1. First to start off; I've very CHI2 DUN4(slow reacting) muscles.
I was having so much fun and joy in carrying my boyfriend's little nephew.
it was only after many hours of carrying then putting him down.
then the pain strikes me gradually.
my arms cramped for the WHOLE night.
mans. Must try my best to remember not to overindulge in my enjoyment with kids from now on.

2. We have to make many choices and decisions in life.
sometimes, when it comes to things I really dislike.
and when it comes to a point that I feel I've been tolerating for too long,
or when disappointments get too great,
I usually give people only two options.
"Take it or Leave it"
it's just as simple as that.
some things can never coincide with me in the same era, or however you phrase it.

3. It takes two hands to clap.
and many claps to get an applause.
sometimes, I can get really demanding, I know.
but since dunno when, I've always strongly believed that if you want something badly enough,
you will be able to clear all obstacles and make all sacrifices to get it.
I used to be someone who will turn to popping panadols into my mouth whenever I feel a slight headache/gastric pain.
and I grew to be really dependent on those for pain relief whenever migraine hits me in the past.
this sort of dependency should be considered an addiction of some sort bahs.
and I've managed to overcome it perfectly.
it wasn't easy.
Imagine the sort of pain you get from migraine, and having to force yourself not to pop those pills into your mouth.
yes, temptations are there.
They are, always there and everywhere;
Quiting an addiction of any sort, isn't easy; never easy at all.
but with the considerable amount of effort one puts in,
one should think about how his/her effort will go back to square one, before giving in to temptations.
In order to quit any form of addiction, the very first step is to stop finding excuses for yourself to do it again.
Think for yourself, and for the people who care enough to want to see you quit.

4. CNY is just round the corner.
what sort of meaning does CNY holds for you?
since young, I always think it as a festive for reunion.
'Cause my dad's side of relatives all live so faraway from us.
but as years go by, and people grow older and have their own life.
I realised that lesser of my cousins do actually return for the reunion.
and even if they do, there isn't much interaction anymore.
HOW SAD CAN! :(
somehow, CNY has begun to lose its appeal to the younger generations, except perhaps, for the fact that they are able to get hongbaos.

okayy. I've babbled enough nonsense lers.
Life goes on, even when something is lost in its own transit and the earth won't stop spinning for you.
Stay strong and move on.
You'll always see the light at the end of tunnel :))

:))))

it's thursday already.
I know I haven't been blogging for a week lers.
Been really busy with my projects.
as well as spending my limited free time with boyfriend who has limited time for me too.
Tuition is going to resume for me.
Am kind of looking forward to it.
'Cause I really need the income.
:((
RAWR!!
new school term has been really great with my unifriends.
not quite with the new ones though.
sighh.

MAB class later.
yay! I'm going to be alone!
sometimes, I rather be alone than be around people who so like comparing results O.o!
rawrr! show-off! >.<

Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!:))

SCHOOL WAS GREAT today.
but alittle exhausting still.
:))
I love meals with people, mingling around and talking to them about things.
oh ya. today I was making fun of someone and my chinese screwed up!!
SO EMBARRASSING!! :(
must brush up on my chinese lers :)

After school, I came home to finish my chores.
Then I went to find JER.
Finally watched FOUR CHRISTMASES!!
it's super NICE!! :))
I SO SO SO LOVE IT.

I kind of dread tml.
but I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I hope my new classmates are nice people.
and they must be friendly!!
haha.
okay. Must get to sleep soon.
it's a LONG DAY tml.
limjiaxin JIAYOU!! :)

DAY TWO OF SCHOOL.

it's only DAY TWO of school.
okay. it just felt as though I've started school for ages.
Nahs. I ain't sick of it yet.
Will try my best not to be.
It's just the morning lessons that are totally killing me.
THE MORNING CROWDS, THE MORNING BLUES >.<
and for the whole of the rest of this week, I have morning lessons at 8.30am!!
rawrrrrrr! why the torture!! :(
okay. end of whinings.
:DDD

Was doing my daily bible reading; came across this verse.
Which is really important and relevant to me.
Matthew 6:34 - "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Feeling sleepy already.
*yawns* it's only TEN o'clock for goodness sake! :'(

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT :))

SCHOOL WAS TOTALLY FABULOUS TODAY!
it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT for me.
Don't get me wrong.
I didn't fall in love with any guy, nor is it my lecturer.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH MY NEW SUBJECT!
"HISTORY OF MANAGEMENT THOUGHT"! *my new love*
*prays hard that the passion will LAST* :DD

must get more sleep.
I think I've been seriously lacking in SLEEP!
*baa baa black SLEEP*
:P

EMO POST.

I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to SCHOOL-reopening.

Seriously, staying at home too much, makes me lose my sanity.
so, just let me have an outlet to release some of those unhealthy feelings;
I hate to keep them inside.
sometimes some person who lives in the same house as I do,
says the most demoralising, most insulting, most humiliating things to you.
sometimes, some person makes you feel so unwelcomed that it seems like things will be oh so merry if you move out.
but at the same time, some person restricts you so much like a caged animal with NO freedom at all.
sometimes, you feel like screaming back at some person just so to tell some person that he might not be all that RIGHT after all.
sometimes, you would wonder if that some person ever reflects on himself.
I really wonder, you know.

but afterall, I do not need to get angry over such a person.
I do not need to prove myself to anyone.
I do not need.
one day, I'll get my freedom.

Know the theory about kite-flying?
I like thinking of relationships using the theory of kite-flying.
Kite-flying is a skill; not all that easy to master.
just like the handling of relationships - CONTROL is the key.
Just like flying a kite, you should learn to control the tauting and releasing of "strings" in a relationship.
If the string is too loose,
the kite might not fly well enough.
but if the string is overly taut,
just as I am feeling, right now,
the string might break,
and the kite might never return, once it has flown away...

okay. this is super emo.
I'm feeling muchmuch better now.
seriously, one should always reflect on him/herself, and make changes asap,
instead of being stuck in a stubborn mindset,
forever thinking that he/she is always RIGHT,
and then end up in regrets.
oh wells. like what my boyfriend always reminds me : " Patience, lim jia xin."
I do have that, you know.
hahs.
and I still have that bit of restraint in myself, you know.
I'll just wait patiently for the day freedom comes looking for me :))
TADA! end of those negativity!
SHOO NEGATIVITY!!
stay away from me!! *RAWRRRRR!!*

YAY!! ^^ school tml.
I'm totally happy about it :D
(I'm perhaps, the only soul around, who is THIS happy about school!
it's not just the freedom; but I enjoy studying rather than doing nothing at all.)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!:))

my New Year isn't as exciting as most of you all.
or rather, on this NewYear, I wasn't in my best of moods.
but ah wells, I made it through with some chocolates.
Thank God for the existence of Chocolates! :))

Since the NewYear is here, I'm going to list down FIVE most important resolutions.
(if too many, I also won't be able to stick to them. Hehs)

LIMJIAXIN's NEWYEAR RESOLUTIONS!
1. To walk more closely with Him in everything I do.
2. To REALLY get on with a fixed and regular exercise regime.
3. To DEFINITELY study HARDER!
4. To spend more time with my family and friends no matter what.
5. To be a muchmuch BETTER and MORE understanding girlfriend to JEREMY LIMCHUANGHAI!

Last Day of YEAR 2008!

it's only about two plus more hours till Year 2009.
How did you spend your last day of Year 2008?
For me, I started it off with chatting w my boyfriend over the phone.
and we were reflecting on Year 2008..
Then we spent the whole day tgr.
Did NewYear shopping for his household.
then we went for Korean food as our NewYearEve dinner.
YumYum. I'm really growing fat!! :((
BOYFRIEND!!thanks for making the last day of Year 2008 so happy for me! :))
I LOVE YOU!! ^^

Reflecting on Year 2008 ...

What was your happiest moment in Year 2008?
For me, it was the day when we got to sing "What a Wonderful World" together with him playing the keyboard and the finale on the same day where he did a perfect solo!
:))

What was your saddest moment in Year 2008?
(ah! I know this is a SAD question but I just felt like asking mah!)
We both agreed that it was definitely the big quarrel that we had.
haha. but I'm totally thankful that we made it through THAT. :))

Ah. I am not going to list all the questions out lah.
Just these two; Cause I liked these two alot.
In Year 2008, I feel that, in a way that I've been forced to grow up far too fast for my own liking.
My mum's diagnosis and the whole process of it, opened up my eyes to life itself.
It was tough; the love and support that I get from my friends, my boyfriend and his family really helped me through.
and I must say, that was really something that strengthens my faith in Him as I also get through it with His help.
In Year 2008, great memories have been created for me.
and in Year 2008, my relationship with Jer was really put to the tests; and I thank God that we made it through.
I guess I am really going to miss Year 2008;
but even more, I look forward to a great and better year in Year 2009 :))

GOODBYE 2008! We'll miss you! :))

HELLO 2009!! MAKE ALL OF US HAPPIER!! :DD

and before I go off, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ^^

happy 3 years PHOTO

Boyfriend was saying that I didn't upload the photos we took on our 3rd anniversary.
and so, I'm going to put up one of my favourites :))

I LOVE YOU JEREMY LIM CHUAN GHAI! ^^

:))

Finally back.
Don't know what/how to feel about being back at home.
Quite mixed feelings, I supposed?

okayy, I'm just going to update the more important happenings for the past week.

1. ME AND JER ARE FINALLY THREE!!
three years seems quite long but don't exactly feel that way.
thankyou for standing by me for so long.
and thankyou for staying strong in faith in us through all the trials and real difficult times.
THANKYOU BOYFRIEND! :))
(let's forget all the unhappy things and move on with our happy memories to a brand new year!)

2. PRF Gathering - I missed you girls so much that I can brave the stupid jams to meet up!
oh wells. I'm so glad that we still get to meet despite our different schedules!
I really enjoyed myself even though our time spent tgr was really short.
(LIYI! I hope you're feeling better!!)
NXT YEAR XMAS GATHERING! - partners compulsory! and everyone will be warned to stay in good health !! :))
Will think of something for the males to wear whilst we wear our reindeer hairbands :D
*evil grin*

3. A whole week spent with Boyfriend was fabulous.
I really enjoyed myself :))
Was damn reluctant to come home can!
:((
thanks for tolerating me for a whole week.
and STOP SPOILING ME w yummielicious food!
I'm growing SUPER FAT already:((
RAWRRRRRRR!!

4. Christmas wasn't as happening as last year.
but i enjoyed myself and the transquility and peace of it.
thanks for your company BOYFRIEND!! :D

those are pretty much all the more important things.
oh ya. thanks to those who sent me their well wishes :))
HAVE A HAPPY AND BLESSED NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! :))

CandleLight Service :))

okayy. I'm here to blog before I disappear for a long long time again.

Today, went for candlelight service at CHC with boyfriend and Flor.
It's an amazing feeling for me!
Three years ago, I stood at the very same service(though @ a different location) with the very same people, as a non-believer.
Three years later, I stand at the very same service with the same people, as a transformed person because I believe :)
ah wells. Can't exactly describe my feelings very well.
but! I am very happy that I get to attend such a special service with two of my most favourite and important people in my life :))
THANK YOU BOYFRIEND!
THANK YOU FLORENCE SIEWYUMIN! ^^
I thank God for putting the both of you into my life :)
and I thank Him for the joys and supports that the both of you never fail to give :))
THANK YOU!!!!! *hugs*